I am a girl. I change my hair often. I’m soft spoken. I rock whatever style I feel. I have a small group of friends. I work hard for everything I have. I have high expectations for my future and I just plan to be great at whatever I do.
Most of the time I am shy in new situations. I have always had a hard time being myself around people I don’t know. I had a friend once tell me that I would have so many more friends if I shared my personality with everyone I met. I use to want to know everybody but the way my shyness was set up I didn’t know how to keep a conversation going. I was always socially awkward and it made me unpopular.
Honestly, I like me. I like being around genuine people who care about me. It is not okay to have people who make you feel uneasy around you. I know when people are not really for me and I push them away for my own protection. I have a hard time keeping people around after they have shown me their true colors, which has always made me think of whether the issue was me or them. But actually It doesn’t really matter. I like being able to choose who is in my circle. I like having the power to choose positive people to stay around.
I am fine with not being popular. I like not having a bad reputation. I love wearing regular clothes and only wearing lip stick for make up. I don’t have to wake up trying to impress anyone. I can wake up look scruffy if I want to and not care to be judged. I don’t care anymore if people find and choose to talk about my flaws. It just shows they have their own insecurities. I love dressing and looking the way that I want. I understand not everyone cares for my fashion sense but I know someone does. That someone matters to me.
I love just being me. It took a while for me to even get into to this space. Yes, I was talked about all my life. Yes, people find any reason not to be cool with me. No I was never popular. I could careless if I ever get popular. All I care about is sharing my story and my life and hopefully it is relateable to others.
I am Kelli and all I can do is be absolutely great at it.